My brain doesn't function properly without you.

So many things I want to say, so many things I want to do. Being free from you only makes me realize how much I'm in love with you. Yes i've done shit to you. But it's not until you lose it that you finally realize the small petty things you do that hurt that someone. To hell with all this best friend shit, for my heart knows no other than you. It's hard yes. But thats whats making everything so difficult. You say we are not meant to be together.WE ALMOST DID! But why didnt we? Because I didn't go that one short extra mile for you baby. I didn't. Imagine if I had! Imagine! Of all the things we didn't do together! I mean come on! Do you really think that you might not fall in love with me one day? I was too obsessed on being with you that i didn't do what was the most important. Loving you. That was all it took so that you would love me back. Ask yourself. Haven't you ever thought that at one small moment in your life you thought you were in love with me and you could see yourself with me? Just one small moment. I would do anything to go back to that time where wrote that post if only. Remember? i forgot to add one thing.

If only you would let me love you right.

I'm falling so hard on my face bloody hell god save me kind of love with you again just like how I was all those months ago. Oh god I'm blabbering so much. You're gone now huh. Well now only time can stop me from loving you. If only....

You are never gonna be the same are you? Right. It's a new year, I don't want to ruin this for the both of us. Bitch about me all you want if thats what I deserve. I never meant to hurt you.

Happy times will come. Sometimes we just have to wait a little longer. So just hush and smile.

Deja Vu.

If I could choose anyone in the world to relive my past year again, it would only be with you. I know I was in love with you then;still am now. Even with all the heartbreaks, I was so happy when I was with you.If ever you'll come back, i'll treat you as if im meeting you for the first time.Head over toes.

When everything finally cracked.

This really feels like shit.

Lost &! disorganiseddddd.

I'm so lost now. Maybe I should open a school for hypocrites. Right, College of heartbreakers & hypocrites. Sounds good doesn't it? It's always easy for me to say to other people.."look, don't be like this" or "it'll all be better". I'm giving advice to people when I myself am so lost beyond doubt.

I have not been fully appreciating my family and my friends. Karma, it's spanking my ass to say: "you've been a bad boy". You know what the real trick is? Its to be grateful. When you're grateful you'll cherish your life even more. When you do, you'll be happier. When you are, people will love you. No regrets, no bad karma, no hypocrisy and last but not least. No pain. This is not self discovery. Its a chapter from the book of life. One which my dear friend pointed it out to me all this while without her knowing it. But i need to get round there first. I need to get round there. I need to. For my life's sake.

All I have to do is dream.

For a few minutes, I thought you never exist. I lost faith in all of love.

I'm sorry baby.

I'm could never kid myself that you're never around.

"I need you so, that i could die, I love you so."

You're always around.

All I have to do is dream.

I don't want to live in a world where you don't exist.

Be it two years ago, yesterday or even today for that matter. I never want you to leave.

I never know if you feel the same. What it is; the sheer vast emptiness that stretches causing you to feel trapped, the numbness that shrouds your body. The inexplicable rage that engulfs your body, causing you to feel so weak and strong at the same time. I never ever want to feel that ever again. So what i'm gonna do for you,is i'm gonna stand fiercely loyal right beside you and protect you. Even if it kills me to do so. Penchant for drama, yes. But if you tried to look far beyond my words i'm trying to say something to reach out to you.

For one of those nights, many nights ago, you had me promise to us.

No matter what happens, you and I will never leave each other. Best friends.