I had to chance to love a very beautiful girl.

I had the chance to be her best friend.

But.

I'm more or less certain the damage that i've done its enough to ruin it all the way.

Many chances.And all just gone to waste.

She was awesome.

I was just an ass.

I had the chance to love a very beautiful girl.

I had it right in my hands.

I had it.

One year. That's what it took for everything to change. I really wished that it wasn't my fault. But I guess it is. I can see the huge difference. When i'm finally gone it will just be just a simple brush of the shoulder. I've resigned to that fate then.

Right, I'm being reduced to ranting out to only this space yet again. As time ticks down to my impending departure from Singapore, I can't help to ponder over my mistakes. Mistakes that have led to me to my current predicament. As I stand by and wonder why I'm being treated differently by other people, I just have to ask myself why. I'm in frustration most of the time, i'm usually sad and moody, tired, angry and sullen-faced. Is this really me? I used to be a happy boy. I had many friends. I used to be just content with playing soccer and just having a soya bean drink after. How can I change? As of right now, the only person I need to believe in me is me. I need to bounce back.