Lost &! disorganiseddddd.

I'm so lost now. Maybe I should open a school for hypocrites. Right, College of heartbreakers & hypocrites. Sounds good doesn't it? It's always easy for me to say to other people.."look, don't be like this" or "it'll all be better". I'm giving advice to people when I myself am so lost beyond doubt.

I have not been fully appreciating my family and my friends. Karma, it's spanking my ass to say: "you've been a bad boy". You know what the real trick is? Its to be grateful. When you're grateful you'll cherish your life even more. When you do, you'll be happier. When you are, people will love you. No regrets, no bad karma, no hypocrisy and last but not least. No pain. This is not self discovery. Its a chapter from the book of life. One which my dear friend pointed it out to me all this while without her knowing it. But i need to get round there first. I need to get round there. I need to. For my life's sake.

All I have to do is dream.

For a few minutes, I thought you never exist. I lost faith in all of love.

I'm sorry baby.

I'm could never kid myself that you're never around.

"I need you so, that i could die, I love you so."

You're always around.

All I have to do is dream.

I don't want to live in a world where you don't exist.

Be it two years ago, yesterday or even today for that matter. I never want you to leave.

I never know if you feel the same. What it is; the sheer vast emptiness that stretches causing you to feel trapped, the numbness that shrouds your body. The inexplicable rage that engulfs your body, causing you to feel so weak and strong at the same time. I never ever want to feel that ever again. So what i'm gonna do for you,is i'm gonna stand fiercely loyal right beside you and protect you. Even if it kills me to do so. Penchant for drama, yes. But if you tried to look far beyond my words i'm trying to say something to reach out to you.

For one of those nights, many nights ago, you had me promise to us.

No matter what happens, you and I will never leave each other. Best friends.