The monster of '05.

4 years ago, it happened.

The monster devoured everything in my life. Sports, academics and social life. You name it.
Then it stopped abruptly.
Calm passed and all was good.
But everyday since then I silently prayed and hoped in fear that it will never come back.

*whispers*
It's back.

The monster is back.

The only way somebody could ever love you, is for you to love yourself.

Never ever think about what others think.
Never.

Just keep going and going. With a smile.

So now what?

I think I need to take a little break from this drama.

Today marks my first day as a CBTL barista.YAY YAY.
First full shift. 8 long hours baby!
You know after being so long out of a job, it's a little awkward if I must say.
I still prefer school.
But I could probably count the reasons why I chose to work even if you cut off nearly all my fingers.
=)

Drama Queen,out!(I meant King)

Okay. Calm down.
What I did last night, was something not many would understand.
What I did last night, was something huge.
A sacrifice if you must say.
Your feelings are more important that anyone else's.
Exasperated I am trying to convince you of my intentions.
I'll always be here for you when you need me.
Don't cry no more baby.Please.

Some things should never be repeated.

SHUT YOUR MOUTH.ALWAYS.

Okay.
New checklist.
New stuff.
New personality.
Everything new.
The past is the..fuck the past.

I wanna make you smile whenever youre sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

Ill get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

Ill miss you
Ill kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Ill need you
Ill feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
-Adam Sandler

This is what I want us to be princess.
Together,best friends,whatever.
As long as you can be around for long to grow old with me.

like how enthusiastic you are in pursuing your love..
-Mum.

Hahah. It's just so funny sometimes.

The game's over but I'm still getting a red card.

You don't hate me.
I know you don't.
And I shall never make that mistake of assuming that as I did before.
You're tired, I'm tired.
I've hurt you so much its not funny.
All the words are dried up.
You won't listen.
Baby i'm always going to hold on to that promise we made.
That's the last promise from anyone I shall ever believe.
I know your friends think I'm the biggest asshole around.
I know your friends think I'm the worst possible candidate for you.
I've screwed up lotsa things.
This shall go down as the biggest.
If you're gonna read this,LISTEN.(OR READ)
I'm not gonna delete you off anything,nor am I gonna block you.
That's how it's gonna be.
But I shall give you your space.
Don't cry anymore.
I'm not worth your tears.


You've got yourself a break baby.

And I shall be happy too.

My princess,it all seems so different now.
I will never forget what we had though.
Seems to me that you're a very happy girl now.
I would never ever dream to get in your way.
So it shall be a compromise that I shall be happy too.
The tears are all shedding now because I can't bear to leave you.

Loves,
that crazy stalker boy who just won't leave you alone.