This is life.

I must learn to cope with loneliness. I must learn to lead without the aid of a companionship. After all it is me who lives my life, not anyone else. It is with great displeasure to say that I am something worthless as of now. The things I have done which has affected a few along the way should have merited a great degree of bad karma to punish me with. All this has been my very own doing and I am certainly not proud of it. This is life. If you do not know how to control it, it will control you. It has made me a sad little boy not knowing how to control my life. All this while i've been doing as i've pleased but I have not fully felt life to the fullest. It is still very much empty. My whole life is revolved around pessimism, anger, sadness and disappointment. But I can change all that, I must learn to lead life on my own.

Yeah we're nearing the end it seems. Drifters we are, now knowing what hit us in the first place. It's been a tough ride with you babe. But you and me, more or less finished. It's sad.

I lost me head.

This anger has been inside me for so long. And I'm so sorry you had to bear the full brunt of it. I'm not normally like that around girls, you know me. But yesterday what happened had to happen. I know you may have your side of the argument, but i'm just trying to point out a few things to you. You will not listen. You've stopped for a long time. And I only have myself to blame. But whatever happened had to happen.

Just like a piece of driftwood.

My relations with her are more or less like Germany in ruins. It's there but everything's gone. Like a piece of driftwood, we remain floating choosing not to sink to the bottom. There is nothing left that could be said or done to salvage anything. It's just a matter of time.